Getting a girlfriend is fun. Getting a boyfriend is equally awsome as well. However, in every relationship there is a time when you will face trouble. If you think that relationships are all fun with no trouble, then it's best not to start one at all. To start one, you need courage. To maintain it, you need preseverence. To believe it, you need faith.

Be careful of your THOUGHT, as it will become your ACTIONS. Be careful of your ACTIONS, as it will become your HABIT.Be careful of your HABIT, as it will become your CHARACTER.Be careful of your CHARACTER, as it will lead to your FATE.

The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, than education, than money, then circumstances, than failures, than successes, than what other people think, say, or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness, or skill. It will make or break a company, a church, a home. The remarkable thing is we have a choice every day regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day.

We cannot change our past. We cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude. I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% how I react to it. And so it is with you. We are in charge of our attitudes.

I know that by seeking the truth you will eventually come across hopelessness and deprivation. However, someone has to do it. Why me? Maybe its because this is the only way I know to live. I have never been acknowledged as an outstanding human being from the beginning and right now, all I seek is a meaningful death. If I can make something out of this useless me, even a small contribution..... then the pain that I've experienced is just but a small fraction to pay in exchange for a greater future which can be used by everyone to experience the happier state of life where all doubts have already been cleared.

Why do I seek to know the truth behind everything? Imagine how many people in which you can save from knowing the truth behind everything..... However, there is a risk you must take to obtain it. That is, you need to experience sadness beyond the expectation of everyone else. Through sadness you will find happiness.

Is it wrong to expect something in return for the good things you did? If it is, then why help in the first place when you want something in return for it? You might as well just make business then. However, even if it is wrong..... why do we get hurt knowing that the person we helped seemed to take us for granted? I understand that it's about giving and taking, but doesn't it hurt when the one you helped keeps taking and taking? Is it not wrong as well if you refuse to help that person in the future knowing that YOU can help but would not based on your own personal experience?

Not the two of them. I am not an enemy..... nor am I a friend. I am not suited for the both of 'em. It's because of that, I thought that I would need to create a sense of belonging with my own power. This is how I live my life..... and the moment I realise it..... I was alone. However, I only knew how to live this path.

What is the use of trust if you are going to be rejected in the first place? What is the use of love when you are going to be betrayed in the end? Love is the reason why grandfather was forced to live an unhappy life and die as a man who is not able to accomplish his task. I will not be rejected again. I will not be betrayed again. I could care less if I was sent to hell rather then heaven if I could accomplish my duty without any interruption from love. I will NEVER believe in love. I am just..... too tired and naive by beliving that it exists.

I finally realise that I was sent to this earth to accomplish my duty rather then my desire. From the beginning, god has never meant to grant me any happiness in this world. All that matters..... is how I should go about completing my task that I was bestowed upon initially. The prove is that up 'till now, I have been rejected and betrayed for many times that I got used to it. However, I was treated like such as I dont deserve the chance to turn my dream desire into reality. Everything I did in the past I regret. Everything I planned to do is always interrrupted the moment I glance upon 'what I want' instead of 'what I am supposed to do'. Now I finally understand the reason behind my existance....