You only believe that you had learned. The fact is that people really do not understand themselves much less then each other. Understanding 100% of anything is impossible. That is why we spend so much time trying to understand our own motivations and those of others. That is what makes life interesting. All of us want to give something inside ourselves to others to be accepted.

To be loved is better then to be liked. To be liked is better then to be acquainted. To be acquainted is better then to be disliked. To be disliked is better then to be hated. To be hated is better then to be forgotten. All of us fight and live our life in order to gain respect from others as a means of recognition. When I was with you, I did not feel alone or apprehensive. That is why I thought I liked you, but it was not that. I simply did not have the courage to look at my true self. I turned to you to run away from it all. I mistook that for love. Who in this world made us feel the way that we must/should feel when being placed in different situations?

I've always thought of time..... as a companion to us whenever and wherever we go..... as a reminder that we must change for it does not come back once we lose it. Us human at our teenage life could only assume, judge and condemn people that they do not really know. All of us are students to our creator that studies the meaning of love. None of us should judge or condemn one another..... for truly, nobody knows one another.

There is no such thing as absolute good just as there is no such thing as absolute evil. One thing I know, good could not be recognized without the presence of evil. Someone who doesnt know how to hate..... will not know how to love. Someone who has not experience sadness..... will not be aware of the feeling 'happiness'. After all, the root of Love and Hate is one. It is the pain that reminds you of what is truly precious. In sadness, we find our humanity.

I thought about this myself..... No, I had no choice but to think it..... and I learned that the most painful thing of all..... it's as if I am not wanted in this world. I really liked it when people need me..... maybe not really because I wanted to help..... but it's because deep down inside, I am trying to feed one of my selfish desire..... that is to prove the fact that I wanted to be needed. Right now, even if people hate me..... it shows that I exist, but in my current state..... I dont even deseve to be hated by anyone...... not to mention to be loved. I am just a simple, no..... a non existance in this world without a care for anyone that will dissapear once my life burns out..... that is, if i have a life to burn in the first place.

You dont trust people..... because the people you trust, trusted them. That's how unique trust is. You dont expect to gain the trust which you build to remain..... once you lied to them. That's how fragile trust is. You should not think that trust..... can be given to those..... who are just simply NICE to you. That's how observatory trust is. It takes up lots of efforts and time to build it..... but it doesnt take any effort nor time to destroy it. If you lie, there's no guarantee that what you've been doing up 'till now is the truth. That is why..... in life..... to maintain..... takes much more effort then gaining it, and to destroy it..... takes less effort then gaining it. I believe every relationship in this world is built upon Fate. You reap what you sow.

Anything in this world that has the ability to feel is alive. The ability to get hurt because of other's action, to get touched because of other's compassion, to cry because of other's gesture, to laugh because of other's humor. The ability to make others feel that they truly exist. The ability to prove your existence through the acknowledgement of others. Others might forget what you did to them, but they will never forget how you make them feel. Regardless of what beings you are..... as long as you have the glimpse idea on how to feel..... you are alive. It's great to be alive for you can experience many wonderful things..... such as the importance of LOVE.

I played some games and I happen to fall in love with someone, but no matter what..... even if I were to take it seriously....., it's just a game marriage. Back in reality, I am still alone..... in fact, no matter how hard I try to get acquainted..... my life has always been revolving around work and studies. Relationship through games doesnt really benefit much when it comes to reality..... as it doesnt erase this emptiness inside of me. I am not asking to be pitied..... nor am I asking to be tursted. I suppose my goal right now..... is just to be successful in life..... and give everything to my parents..... instead of spending more time in games as it revolves around dreams.