Is it selfish to let someone know your feelings? Is it wrong to want something? All I know is..... I live a life that is going to place myself in a situation where trouble exists. By loving someone I drag that person down the same road as mine. If I love someone..... I should just do my best to keep the person I love from getting harmed..... I should do whatever I can including breaking the person's heart so that that person will stay away from me..... I should just walk this road myself because..... if I truly love someone, regardless of what I want..... I must keep that person away from danger..... right?

All of us wanted to give something inside of ourselves to others in seek of acknowledgement. However, I'll give everything that I can offer to just avoid it. I am well aware that there is a chance that it will invite something great in life that one could not have ever imagined, yet..... there is a chance that it could invite the destruction of one's own feeling. I chose to be the coward by rejecting it even if there's a chance for it to work out. I'll give anything..... just to forget that day..... the day I lost a part of my humanity.

As long as there are people, negative emotions will exist. Anger, Hate, Sadness, Jealousy and the worst of all..... Greed. What matters most is the bonds you create with those whose live you share. You may only see them once in your lifetime and the time you spend with them may only be a fleeting moment..... but those bends holt the world together. After all, all the things in the universe are connected through one circle we call LIFE.

I live my life based on how I felt it to be right. It's because of love I am aware of my fear, and it's because I am able to face my fear I am confident. Yet, it's because of love I figured out my stupidity. If you ask me to go through the pain that I have to deal with after having love abandon me..... then I'd say NO. Yet, it might not just be love that abandoned me, but me abandoning love..... at the cause of fear. This is one problem I still have not find the solution in solving. Neither do I have enough courage to overcome it.

Love? All of us would give a part of ourselves just to gain it. Yet to some, it's just a tool to be used in order to bring them to a higher pace on their life. It's comforting to know that you have someone in your life, yet it hurts when all these while we figure that they've been using us through the instrument people call love. If love is about playing with people's feeling..... then I dont need it. I dont need it at all.

I'm afraid. I dont know how to show it, but I truly am afraid. People who place their trust upon me..... I might dissapoint them. People who associate themselves with me..... I feel that they'll be a loser just like me. However, the scariest thing of it all..... is that I dont even know if I can trust myself..... let alone love myself.

Sometimes, you speak more then you listen. For that you missed part of the truth in which you could discover as you acknowledged the truth only based on the experience which you went through by what you see and do. However, not all things others speak are facts.

In every choice you made in life, there is always a certain risk that you must comprehend. Whether or not you are willing to take the risk..... it's entirely up to you. However, one thing we must always keep in mind is that appearances, actions as well as status often misleads people from seeing one's own beauty which lies within the eyes of the beholder. This is one of the many ways on how deceptions are created.