Destiny ..... cannot be determined by others but yourself. Goals ..... cannot be set until you've seen something in which you desire to seek. Love ..... can't be obtained the moment you judge. Trust ..... cannot be given until you've earned it. Both good and bad things exists in this world for people to discover. When others had failed, another succeed. I may dislike a particular person, but I dislike having to hate even more. In society, those who doesn't follow the rules are trash ..... but those who betrays their friends ..... are lower than trash. Knowing that each aspect of life contains both failure and success, people became afraid to go on in life. Though the risk may cause your life, courage shall be forged upon taking the challenge. Rather than waiting and be afraid of doing anything new, I'd rather risk it and take a new step forward ..... for the purpose of my existance

The ability to fight ..... for those whom you love, ..... for self satisfaction, ..... for the honour and pride to be gained. The ability to stand after defeat, ..... for the tasks others placed you upon, ..... for the trust others gave you, ..... for your beliefs. The ability to sacrifice yourself for the greater future. The ability to gain enough courage to face death. The ability to be strong enough not to be able to lose to anyone ..... and finally, the desire to reveal the truth. These are the path in which I seek to follow, and I refuse to let go of my life ..... until I see the end of the journey I started. I may be alone in this new road, but it's too late to turn back ..... no, there is no turning back. Even if everyone in this world became my enemy, I have to see it through the end ..... to the place which all my questions will all be answered and doubts will be cleared.

These are the times of tall men, and short character; steep profits, and shallow relationships. These are the times of world peace, but domestic warfare; more leisure, but less fun; more kinds of food, but less nutrition. These are days of two incomes, but more divorce; of fancier houses, but broken homes. It is a time when there is much in the show window and nothing in the stockroom; a time when technology can deliver this message to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this message and make a difference... or just simply ignore it.

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings, but shorter tempers; wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints; we spend more, but have less; we buy more, but enjoy it less. We have bigger houses and smaller families; more conveniences, but less time; We have more degrees, but less sense; more knowledge, but less judgment;more experts, but less solutions; more medicine, but less wellness. We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often. We've learned how to make a living, but not a life; we've added years to life, not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet the new neighbor. We've conquered outer space, but not inner space; we've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul; we've split the atom, but not our prejudice. We have higher incomes, but lower morals; we've become long on quantity,but short on quality.

Blood is thicker than water. Family will always be there. Those not related ..... may fill in your emptiness upon knowing your weaknesses ..... or simply attack your weak point. However, there is a way to prevent yourself from being injured. 1st is ISOLATION where no one can hurt you. 2nd is DOMINATION where you get to rule others. Accomplishing the 1st trait sounds simple but requires enough courage to even face death. The 2nd trait will require you to be a being with little or no flaws. But, the most natural selection among all will be the 3rd trait, TRUST ..... which requires you to find real/true friends.

Depending on others to be your pillar ..... I understand. Burdening others with your problems ..... I don't. People deal with their own problem differently. Some think, others sleep ..... Some flushed food down their throat like garbage chute. We are all human ..... not god. We are incomplete beings who needs friends to fill in our emptiness. I don't want to be alone ..... at the same time I hate to depend on others. There is no guarantee that friends will come to my rescue when I am in trouble. Thus depending on yourself is the only way out. Walk with your own two feet. Take responsibility for your consequences. Live up to the reality that you don't want to see.

Mum's going back. Dad's leaving. Sis is going away. I'm all alone again once more. The very warmth in my heart that keeps me motivated and alive ..... god is trying to take it away? My heart aches a lot at times like this. But ..... it's ok, right? What have I been fighting for all this while? Spending christmas alone again? Pitied by others without being able to do anything by myself again? Maybe this is why i was born. To be alone, to be saturated with pain ..... and to realise the meaning of reality? But right now, I am tired. Let me rest ..... an eternal slumber without pain ..... I don't mind it at all.

What can create can destroy. What can be happy can be sad, and finally ..... what can love can hate. We are capable of dealing what brings to others' emotion due to our deeds. For those who bring happiness and glory to others, it does not mean that they have done an honourable thing, and for those who bring sadness and despair to the people, it does not mean that they have done a sinful deed. The truth in life does not lie in just one side of a coin, for judgement can only be passed after the analysis of both sides. One other thing ..... will there be light ..... without darkness?