Mum's going back. Dad's leaving. Sis is going away. I'm all alone again once more. The very warmth in my heart that keeps me motivated and alive ..... god is trying to take it away? My heart aches a lot at times like this. But ..... it's ok, right? What have I been fighting for all this while? Spending christmas alone again? Pitied by others without being able to do anything by myself again? Maybe this is why i was born. To be alone, to be saturated with pain ..... and to realise the meaning of reality? But right now, I am tired. Let me rest ..... an eternal slumber without pain ..... I don't mind it at all.