Everything in life that you experience has it's own good and bad points. From a strand of hair to the end of this universe. Just as there are many truths, there are also plenty of ways you can look at things. You can look at rejection as something that it will bring you down..... depriving you of what you did, seeking your weakness which will lead to your surrender to your current pursuit that you've worked so hard for..... or you can look at it in a way that it will motivate you even more to find your own answers, proving all of those who didn't believe you wrong. I don't know whether that answer exists for everyone, but there's only one thing I know..... that 'success only comes to those who presevere in doing what they do best'. Don't ever give up, never surrender, always fight for your beliefs, leaving something valuable that humanity will cherish..... that's the only way to distinguish yourself..... that's the only way to prove your own existance..... and that's the only way that you will ever matter.

Don't judge me with your measuring stick. A being too strong, too smart as well as too courageous can become an existance of fear. To some people, I am simply an object that they wish to use and remove once I become useless. Then, why do I exist? Why am i alive? When I thought about this, I could find no answer, but as you live, you need a reason. Otherwise it's the same as being dead. Everyone has some kind of important destiny to fufil. Finding what that is..... is the only freedom that god has given us. I don't know if what I am doing is what I want, but if I cannot find my reason to live, the least I could do is to give that hope to others who believed in me.

People want to be appriciated. To be reminded that we are in the right track..... that we are doing the right thing in life..... to be needed by someone. There was one time when I think that..... No, I had no choice but to think about those matter..... and I realised that, the most painful thing that in this world..... is that I am a person who is unwanted. If someone who acknowledged you from the bottom of your heart appeared, wouldn't that someone become the most important person to you?

From what I observed..... we are living in a sinful existance. We may not even be worthy enough to live on this mother earth..... but..... even if this world is full of sin..... even if there are bad people around..... even if we are beyond redemption..... I still want to protect it! The world where I get to learn from my mistakes through myself as well as others..... the world where I get to discover new things from seeing things through different prespectives..... and finally..... the world where I get to meet people who makes me feel that I can do anything I want by just believing. It is true that everyone is really gone when you give up, but you never give up..... everyone believes.

Fom where there is hope, you can find the future through your past. The past may leave you with a tremendous amount of incureable scar, but do not grieve. Instead, find your future through your past. When unavoidable things happen, people tend to blame themselves for the unawareness they did not realise. Do not discourage yourself. Instead, use that pride inside of you to create the future.

Is it really selfish to want someone to understand you? Do you know how scary it is? To lose your own soul..... to have no one to proof your existance..... to have no one to understand you to relate to you enough to be able to respond the way you want it, the way you felt it to be and the way you like it to be..... as long as I have someone that understands me fully, I can maintain that grip and have the motivation to go on pursuing what I think it is right in life, but..... to make someone understand you..... is to have that person to understand what their pains are..... what their worries are and what their weaknesses are which would make them sad..... and I do not want to be responsible for making anyone sad..... for that reason alone I seek something that has no soul, no feelings, no emotions..... yet exists only for the purpose of making me happy. If the reason does not exist, I shall create one within my own ability.....

Is it really selfish to share your sadness with someone? I have experienced something that has truly made me sad..... something that has somehow makes me feel that my life is worth nothing compared to those who had achieve something..... something that made me feel that I am useless..... and to share that feeling with someone..... would only make that particular person feel the same way and I do not want that. Is it really selfish? I know nothing of it but all I know is that..... I don't want to burden this feeling upon others. Sadness no more..... no..... more.....

If you are telling me that everyone is completely different and that there are no similarities between our beliefs..... then you are telling me that true peace can never be obtained..... and if peace cannot be obtained, why do some wish to make it come true up to the extent that they would sacrifice their lives? It is because they believe. I wanted to believe that I can change the world. That's why I am trying my best no matter what. For those who believes in me, for those who needs me and lastly..... for myself.

Will you sacrifice your loved ones in exchange of the safety of the world? Will you kill someone that had saved you in the past if he/she is required as a sacrifice in order to save the world? Will you kill a single innocent child to obtain a cure for all the diseases of the world? It is true that sacrifices needed to be made for the good of mankind..... but I won't do it. Not only will I not do it, but I will protect them as well..... because I feel that no one has the right to judge another person's life and justify their own existance through other's misery.