I thought about this myself..... No, I had no choice but to think it..... and I learned that the most painful thing of all..... it's as if I am not wanted in this world. I really liked it when people need me..... maybe not really because I wanted to help..... but it's because deep down inside, I am trying to feed one of my selfish desire..... that is to prove the fact that I wanted to be needed. Right now, even if people hate me..... it shows that I exist, but in my current state..... I dont even deseve to be hated by anyone...... not to mention to be loved. I am just a simple, no..... a non existance in this world without a care for anyone that will dissapear once my life burns out..... that is, if i have a life to burn in the first place.