I finally realise that I was sent to this earth to accomplish my duty rather then my desire. From the beginning, god has never meant to grant me any happiness in this world. All that matters..... is how I should go about completing my task that I was bestowed upon initially. The prove is that up 'till now, I have been rejected and betrayed for many times that I got used to it. However, I was treated like such as I dont deserve the chance to turn my dream desire into reality. Everything I did in the past I regret. Everything I planned to do is always interrrupted the moment I glance upon 'what I want' instead of 'what I am supposed to do'. Now I finally understand the reason behind my existance....