Genetics don't make us alive. It's our curiosity, compassion, understanding, patience that makes us alive. It's because of LOVE that we are alive.

I am uncertain about how I am supposed to feel about marriage.
At first, I am thrilled about it thinking that I will finally have a companion to share the rest of my life with. At other times I feel afraid thinking what will happen if I am betrayed by her.

Often to minimize the risks we take, we weigh the +ve and -ve aspects of the subject.
However in marriage, we can never do that as we don't know what will be the conditions of one's loyalty or disloyalty. Because of my inability to accept failures, I keep thinking of the -ve aspect of it and what I can do should the worse happen. (Always prepare for the worse and hope for the best)

Mostly I think how am I to survive if she betrays me.
Then I realize that part of LOVE is to have faith in humanity and part of that faith comes from how you treat others with love.

It's not that everyone wants to be appreciated, but it's how you should appreciate the kindness that people show you. It's not how everyone wants to be loved, but it's how you should love others.

I've always asked my purpose of life; what kind of man I wish to be. Dying to make his son's life better, living with pain to ensure happiness towards his family, that is the responsibilities one has to live with as a man! .....

i think there is, just that you can't give up. I realized that anger gives me energy, but the energy that i received when I was angry was far more limited compared to the energy i received when I was felt with love. After i get angry, i feel like i can do anything, even take on the world!

But after i did something, I feel tired, depressed and just want to sleep but when i feel appreciated, when i feel thanked, when I feel that i'm needed by someone, that's when the limitless amount of energy rushed into my brain and all i think about is NOT TO DISAPPOINT THAT SOMEONE WHO TRUSTED ME! With that feeling, I can take on anything and the best part about it is that once I get it, I feel a sense of accomplishment rather then tired and disappointed..... and that feeling will last FOREVER and it becomes the very basic foundation of your understanding in LOVE

That feeling of HOPE, DEVOTION and LOVE! I just don't want to lose it! No matter how NAIVE, no matter how STUPID, all I ever wanted is just to keep fighting for what I believe is RIGHT!

I don't do it for my friends. I don't do it for my family. I don't do it for my enemies. I did it for myself! Because I believe that with this feeling of love that I felt in my heart, I can make myself GREATER then the me yesterday! To make your life work, you don't need to believe in your family, friends or enemies. You don't even need to believe in God! But what you need is for God to BELIEVE IN YOU! And that requires you to believe IN YOURSELF! You become the better person and everyone else will put their trust IN YOU!

What is feeling anyways? When someone pinched you, you feel pain. That is something that can be programmed. From the very beginning, I've studied that feelings is something that are pre-programmed by God! It's a reaction most common people give when faced with certain situation. That is NATURE! However, there is something that I cannot program. Something that made us feel ashamed of ourselves whenever we hurt someone. Something that warms our heart when we like someone more then just friends.

Those who cannot see this 'inner beauty' can't because they're too focused with the outer beauty (sexy body, pretty face, rich, etc). Even talent and knowledge are considered as outer beauty. What's considered as inner beauty is the strength to always stand up when you fall, to stay loyal to the task that you believe is worth fighting for..... to love someone without expecting anything in return.....

I do not know whether or not you'll be insulting god if you insult others. What I know is that, you who are full of sin yourself do not have the right to judge others, and what I believe from others fallback is that there is their inner strength that develops from it (Similar to how failure is the mother of all success). Finding out what that inner beauty is..... is what will provide you with TRUST which will lead to LOYALTY which will ultimately give you HAPPINESS. That is what defines 1 life, 1 girl, 1 death!