What I really want? Someone to hug me, kiss me, give me a message when I'm tired, support me during difficult times, shelter me, protect me. Though it may not seem like it, I am always alone and I always feel insecure. Being born as a man, I know that i need to be strong..... but I am scared..... and I made up all these excuses just so that I could have a girlfriend out of pity. I finally understand now that the one who is willing to sacrifice her pride for my happiness..... is my mother all along. I am too ignorant finding another girl who is beautiful or cute who doesnt have a sense in knowing that love actually meant sacrificing your own pride for another person. I am too foolish as I kept falling for their looks instead of their willingness to love me. In the end..... I brought this problem upon myself that I ended up staying single and an unhappy men who is not loved by anyone. As long as I have my mother..... as long as I have my family..... I will never live..... an UNLOVED life. For that I plan to devote most of my time to my family before any others in this world.