I know that I may sound like I am asking those who needs help to 'make use' of their friends..... but every little of your trouble that they discovered reveals up a part of yourself that you fear to show oothers and it symbolises your trust towards them. If there is one thing that I know that's more painful then being betrayed, being hated and being ignored..... is the fact that you actually 'failed' someone which proves that you are a 'total failure'. I failed a lot before in the past and through my decision of restriction towards the tradition of life I will find the time where I should once again live up to those failure.